Officially missing you

It's not when or where that matters,

But who that changes everything.

May the pork be with you.

Since Christmas is coming, I shall make a wish list for myself TEEHEE :

1. Itouch 4 Since Bf said I don't NEED it. Okay....

2. I need a new big purse then, tqvm.

3. Cash would be fine, like angpao in Christmas style :)

4. A car would be awesome since license was my birthday present hehe.

5. New earrings for my lost earrings. I don't wanna close my piercings.

6. Almost forgot about my very own semi-pro camera! Ngeh
7. Or maybe my lomo camera is good enough too. The best part is, it's not that expensive :D:D

Wow, apparently there's not much that I actually want right now .___.

And most of the above makes gigantic holes in thy wallets.

Anyway, I will update my Christmas wish list when I can think of any hehe.

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Found this really really really cute song. Omg, I melted.

evon

You & I

 We're fools whether we dance or not,

So we might as well dance.

 A moment ago, it felt like I have tons & gazillion of things to say here. But now, my brain's all blank -.- Oh gosh, I feel like an old lady with short term memory loss now. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, lemme think. Oh, had Ikea meatballs with Bf today. It was like haven :) Well, that's not exactly what I wanted to tell you all.... Anyways, I guess it's not that important for my brain to remember it. Oh wells, till then. Hoohaa

BABUSHKA!

evon

Fralalalala

Highway run, into the midnight sun.

Wheels go round & round, you're on my mind.

 Me : You're so cute!

Boyfriend : Are you calling me ugly?

Me : No no, just cute.

Boyfriend : But cute means ugly yet adorable.

Me : Okaaaay. So you're cute, just the adorable part.

Boyfriend : So I'm TE without the CU.

Me : Hahahaha

I know often we might tick each other off.

Our conversations might get ugly once in a while.

We might not understand each other as much as we think we do,

Or be there for one another at all times.

But sometimes I feel like a childish little kid.

Always seeking for your attention.

I don't know why, but maybe it's because

I love spending all my time with you.

I know nothing's prefect, definitely not our relationship.

We might be on different pages sometimes.

We may be far away from one another.

Or sometimes we don't even have much time for one another.

But sometimes I feel like a shy school girl.

Crushing over a guy from school.

When I see you around me,

I could feel my heart beating for you.

It's really draining when we argue, disagree or even hurt one another. It scares me to see us being like that. Sometimes we get so frustrated, I forgot how much you truly mean to me. And start saying things that I don't mean. And sometimes things get so wrong, I forgot all the good times we've spent together. And I just want to give up on all of these. But flashbacks of my national service moments came to me, and I started to realize how much I really miss you those days. How much I yearn to see your face. How much I long to hear your voice. Just to know that you are all mine and no one else's. Baby, I'm sorry for not appreciating you when you're right in front of me.

I don't know how much more we're going to go through.

But I really love you ♥

evon

So much

Give her two red roses, each with a note. The first note says,

For the woman I love and the second, for my best friend.

Not what I expect it to be. Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.Not what I expect it to be.

 Bf's family brought me out for dinner. Thank you so much for always feeding me with awesome food. I feel so bad, cause seriously I couldn't enjoy myself much due to the pain. It sucks so bad. And of all days, the day before my birthday. It couldn't have been any better. And Bf fell sick too. I wouldn't blame you, so don't feel bad alright? Really tried my very best to take care of you. Mwaxx

I'm just having this emotional break down due to my consistent eye infection and it's awesomeness of choosing dates to come and haunt & ruin my life. And stop freaking say it's because of my cons okay?! I'm so sick of it. Feels like forking out my eye balls -.-

Anyways, thank you Bf for my awesome super duper early birthday present this year. I love it so so much. Putting aside all these that distracts me from appreciating things that are in front of my eyes, I'm really happy that you bought me my new pink phone. And I know I had to ruin the surprise because I spoiled my current phone during National Service hehe. I just had to do it. Anyways, this is the best present I ever received. Thank you Bf ♥

evon

God is good, All the time.

Glory is not fame, glory is not making yourself a name,

Glory is about sacrificing for others. - Jaeson Ma

Sparkly sparkles me :)

1. I've been slacking with my blog recently. Have you ever felt like there's so much to tell to the world but yet you don't what's it all about? Hmmm all jumbled up inside. It's not a pretty feeling.

2. I love recyclables, don't you? ♥

3. Bff drove me to Sunway yesterday just because he's craving for sushi haha. Awesome :) And he drove the family car and parked into a puny parking lot. Awesomer! Went over to Selva's but he was bathing. So we bunked into Mei Ki's first. I found out some secrets * Jeng jeng * Me likey >:)

4. God really does wonders. Remember I told you I was discourage by how the people of Malaysia is looking down on their own country? Well, yes. But then, I attended a meeting this week. And my pastor was talking about discouragement. " Do not be discouraged, but instead stand up with courage and start encouraging people. " Well, look at the bright side. When something bad is happening even if it's personal/family/friends/country/nation, we know that God is going to do something miraculous about it. Amen!

5. Having pasta tonight! Wheee I like pasta even without the gravy .__. That's how much me likey

6. Last week to vote for boyfriend in Hottest Hunk 2010. HUNK19 & send to 36213

Okay, my pasta friends are calling me by the stomach. Bye :)

evon

Do my best, God will do the rest.

Dream as if you'll live forever,

Live as if you'll die today.

Bangs, love.

Was discouraged by my driving instructor the other day. No, he did not criticize my driving skills but the fact that all Malaysians now think the same way as he is. Since when bribery is our culture? Since when ? Since when? Okay, maybe it has been here for quite some time. But that doesn't mean that we should encourage people to do so, especially young people. I mean, isn't this why the percentage of accidents between age 18-25 increases dead scarily in a year and yet the government is still trying to figure out the solution and add in new pathetic rules when the problem itself starts with you people acting foolishly behind the scenes. What happened to brave independent people trying to stand up for the rights? Are we all including myself too afraid of being right sometime?

I mean, I may SUCK super bad at driving and still am. But at least I try my very best to do what is right. And even instructors & examiners themselves can't fulfill all the rules & regulations that they've created from the first place. Because the examiner himself was doing the exact same thing after he told me I was wrong So tell me, who are you to judge me for not driving right? At least I know myself that I can drive slowly & carefully with full awareness even though I was afraid like crap. It is so polluted back there right now, that people like us who have no rights are forced to bribe or else we would never get anywhere. And especially exampled people like me who is so bad at driving have a thousand reasons to bribe and get it over with.

But I can tell you, I will try my very best to do what is right. I know many had failed, but God forgives. I don't know but maybe I may fail to do so too, but I know in the future that I did my best. To voice out & make a difference. I don't know how many times I'd be tempted to do so, but because I know and believe, that God will do the rest for me. I need not worry about anything for God is by my side. We cannot just stand here and watch our country fall into this trap and when our country does, everyone just leaves it as it is. This is not the purpose of why we are set into this country by God to do so. I may be one person, I may be small. But one person is when changes start. Where difference is made. We have one life to live. What are you gonna do about it?


I know that one day, I may have to delete this post. But the thought of this makes me sick. It is time to make a stand. We will never be the same again :)





evon

 Your words, so soothing

We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come,

As a result of getting something we don't have.

But rather of recognizing & appreciating what we do have.

 

I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet
But at Your word Lord
I'll receive Your faith to walk on oceans deep
And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failings surely would have drowned me
Still You made a way
 

You are my freedom
Jesus You're the reason
I'm kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life
Here in my life

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds the
Way to freedom truth of Jesus
Brought from death into this life
And I remember how You saw me
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the price was Your beloved for me
Still You made a way

Hillsongs United - Here in My Life

The song says it all :)

evon

Turn to you

Love is an act of endless forgiveness,

A tender look which becomes a habit.

You may find mistakes in this picture,

But I never told you it would be perfect either.

Give it up, you will never live up to perfection,

Let God be the writer of your story.

evon

 When water turns red

 Emotions have taught mankind to reason.

The night has yet come & haunt me once more. The eagerness within me to close my eyes & dream about dreams that would never come true. But words & thoughts keep coming into this head of mine to distract me. Oh, this uninvited feeling that is long gone has come for a visit. Welcome back, you. I remember always telling myself that no one is ever perfect. No one & when I say no one it means not even myself *reminder to self that I shall not see myself as a perfect or close-to-perfect soul*. But sometimes or would I say, most of the time my emotions tense to take over of me like a little green monster. To most girls, jealousy is their little green monster but not me. And I can say I'm pretty much sick & tired of it already. I dislike being on a roller coaster ride with my emotions. It's makes me wanna puke when I look at myself in the mirror. It makes me question myself, " What more am I of them to judge & teach people the way that I do? ", " Who am I to say such words of hurt & cruelty to? " I bring such disgrace to myself, gives me the chills. As I look closely to the mirror & wipe away all those thick make up. " What do I see? " Open pores, pimples & scars all over my face. Imperfection. So the question bugs me again. " Who am I to do so? "

Lord Jesus, change me.

evon

What the world has become

Come live in my heart,

And pay no rent.

This video really opened up my eyes and see things that I've never realized before. I encourage all of you to watch all 10 episodes of this as I'm only publishing 1 out of 10. And I can say I am not going to ask any of you to stop listening to circular songs as I would be called as a hypocrite because I am sure that I will not stop listening to circular songs either. But since we are all conscious of these plans that are set to change our mindset, we should not let these behaviours brainwash us into being more like them. "Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will." - Romans 12:2

Always remember that God is always there waiting for us. To help us when we are down. To pick us up when we fall. All we need to do is cry out to Him and He will save you ♥





evon