As you all know or not know, I'm single.
It's been awhile since I've felt this way.
And there's this urge in me that wants me to type this down.
Every single sentence of how I feel.
At that moment, I was lost. So scared of the world. Everything went wrong. I questioned God, " why is this happening to me? What did I ever do to you to be treated this way?" You didn't answer me. Or maybe I was too stubborn to listen.
Then I remember someone telling me. "Maybe God wants this to happen so you'll come back to Him." It didn't make sense to me. I'm always with Him. Why should I come back to him when I'm already where he wants me to be? Then that someone replied, "Maybe He wants to be C-L-O-S-E-R to you. Where have your heart been all these years?" It hit me. Finally. It hit me.
I guess I found my answer. Well, I think I did.
I think, He wants me to let go of what I think and feel is important - my relationship, to focus on Him first. Maybe because He felt I'm unprepared. Or maybe He has better plans for me. But I can say it's never easy letting go. But I'm trying. And it's getting easier.
Well, look at the bright side.
Both of us had learnt so many things outta this relationship :)
It's truly an experience I'll never regret, eventho it hurts like hell.
Well, of course with the help of all my beloved friends and family who cared about me so much.
Without you guys, I can't even imagine how I'd face this.
I really wanna thank you guys so much!
Eventho this happened quite some time ago.
It'll always be kept in my heart.
As a wonderful memory and lesson.
I have to admit, I love him.
But it's time to move on.
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
Always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
And there's this urge in me that wants me to type this down.
Every single sentence of how I feel.
At that moment, I was lost. So scared of the world. Everything went wrong. I questioned God, " why is this happening to me? What did I ever do to you to be treated this way?" You didn't answer me. Or maybe I was too stubborn to listen.
Then I remember someone telling me. "Maybe God wants this to happen so you'll come back to Him." It didn't make sense to me. I'm always with Him. Why should I come back to him when I'm already where he wants me to be? Then that someone replied, "Maybe He wants to be C-L-O-S-E-R to you. Where have your heart been all these years?" It hit me. Finally. It hit me.
I guess I found my answer. Well, I think I did.
I think, He wants me to let go of what I think and feel is important - my relationship, to focus on Him first. Maybe because He felt I'm unprepared. Or maybe He has better plans for me. But I can say it's never easy letting go. But I'm trying. And it's getting easier.
Well, look at the bright side.
Both of us had learnt so many things outta this relationship :)
It's truly an experience I'll never regret, eventho it hurts like hell.
Well, of course with the help of all my beloved friends and family who cared about me so much.
Without you guys, I can't even imagine how I'd face this.
I really wanna thank you guys so much!
Eventho this happened quite some time ago.
It'll always be kept in my heart.
As a wonderful memory and lesson.
I have to admit, I love him.But it's time to move on.
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
Always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
1 Corinthians 13:4
evon
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