As Long As We Got Love.

I know me and the boyfriend mentioned that we don't celebrate Valentines Day. But he somehow managed to pull it off with a surprise once again even though it wasn't on Valentines Day itself, it was lovely :) And honestly it does feel good to be surprised once in a while, don't you think so too? But I always remind myself that as long we got love, everything else is secondary. Well, at least I try too.

Back to my surprise. He specially parked his car in my house that night and asked me to help him carry some things out, saying that he bought lots of stuff. I thought he bought tons of ingredients to cook me dinner! Haha but I opened the car door to find a bouquet of flowers placed nicely on the seat; it has cute little bears on it too. According to him, I was so surprised that I went over and hugged him and forgot to take my flowers out from the car. Then I also found out that he bought me yummy durians for late dinner. So the night ended with us sitting on our usual coach watching Armargeddon together while enjoying durians.

Even though it was a simple surprise, it really made my day. I felt so much love from this man, who took time off to think of all these for me because he knows how much I love surprises. Even though he's always busy with work and church, he manage to squeeze in some time for me despite being tired most of the time. He ended up falling asleep on my lap that night because he was so tired. But I really don't mind; because it's the time spent together that makes moments like these memorable.

Boyfriend got me this gym in the pocket for Valentines. My supposedly replacement for roses this year, I thought.
But he was sweet enough to get me roses again. Double bonus :) 

Outfit on Sunday morning :)

The famous cheesecake at ss15. Was craving for it the other day and boyfriend was nice enough to bring me there to buy it.
Recommended! There's so many people even during Chinese New Year week.
RT Pastry House
Address: B6-G, Jalan SS15/4D, Subang Jaya 47500 Selangor
Tel: +603-5621-6758

That's it for my week. Busy busy, a video of my Colin boy coming soon :)

evon

Be My Valentine

Happy Valentines everyone. 14th of February has finally arrived. The day all the girls wished they'd received roses and love-shaped chocolates; the day all the guys who wished they'd more to offer for his girl. As what people always say, love is in the air. I suppose my air is filled with love as well. His love, for all I know :)

However, those days of anticipating for something really BIG to happen to me on Valentine's Days are long gone. I used to think that this feeling only happens when you're way too disappointed about what your other half had done for you for the past few years on this day. But now I realize that I'm just really glad and blessed to have this man standing behind me everywhere I go, ready to catch me when I fall; ready to listen to me when I complain; ready to take care of me when I'm unhappy; ready to share my burden with me. What more could I ask for from him? 

I suppose what I'm trying to say here is that money can't buy us happiness; it can't buy us love. Because where there is love, there will always be happiness. A guy who can provide you everything on this earth doesn't mean he can provide you love however a man who may not provide you everything on this earth can provide you one thing, and that is love. It's your choice, take a pick. But wherever that you decide to go, make sure it is what makes you happy beneath you. Because it is pointless to make decisions that will only end up in disappointments and misery.

I believe the decision I've made 2 and a half years back was right for me. It changed me; it changed my entire life, forever. I couldn't wish to be anywhere else but here right now. Looking back in my past seems much easier with him by my side; always telling me that things will be better now. And I believe him, I really do. But my past will always be my past, it taught me so much. Despite how much it has hurt me and scarred me, it somehow has made an impact in the way I project what I call, love. I will always remember my past. 

So, Happy Valentines Day everyone. Remember to show some love not only to your loved one but also to your family, friends and not forgetting God :) That's all I have for today.

evon

Insecurities Anyone?

I have to admit that insecurity is one thing everyone is familiar with despite men or women. I believe that even the prettiest women or men started off with low self-esteem and got them to where they want to be now; we all try and try so hard to fit in and feel comfortable in other people's presence. I remind myself over and over again that everyone is beautiful in their own ways, but somehow those insecurities conquered my feelings and changed the way I think and took care of myself. Well sometimes, you just need to be reminded by someone other than yourself that it's okay to be you. Familiar anyone?

 But then you go on Tumblr, and you see something different. You see girls buying clothes, cutting their hair, taking laxatives, starving themselves, doing anything to make themselves look thinner. They base their self-worth on a NUMBER projected on a man-made scale. And to be honest with you, it breaks my heart. Because I know that you CAN eat without feeling guilty, you CAN eat fattening food without punishing yourself afterwards. What the scale says is NOT the most important thing. Being thin is NOT more important than being healthy. Being thing and not eating are NOT signs of true will power and success. Screw what all these pro-ana blogs tell you. You don't have to be thin to be attractive. You are perfectly okay just the way you are.


Source: Staypositive.me

evon

Wedding Memories

The most beautiful moments to remember is when he looks at her with that smile, like she's the only woman in the world and all he could ever ask for is for her to walk down the aisle in her white dress, ready to love him for the rest of her life. 

Before the wedding, "They wanted to pray together, but not see each other, before the ceremony."

evon

Forgiveness

Forgiveness

v. for-gave, for-giv-en, for-giv-ing, for-gives

1. To excuse for a fault or an offense; pardon.

2. To absolve from payment.
3. To renounce anger or resentment against.

I believe that forgiveness is one feeling and action that has been taken too lightly just by saying 'I forgive you' that we have already forgiven someone; but deep down in our hearts, you know that you truly haven't and you knew how much you hated disliked this person that had hurt you in the past. I admit to myself, that even I face the same problem today. It just makes me feel better of myself by saying it, but truly have I forgiven that person? I believe not.

But what if everyone had a mind like those kids in the videos; believing that if we were to not forgive, we'd not have any friends anymore. Because in today's world, friends are like goods. Commercialized goods. We like em, we keep em; we don't like em, we throw em. See, it's because of our mindsets today that made it so easy for us to not practice forgiveness and give up easily on the people we once knew was important or was part of our lives. But there is a difference in goods and humans; feelings. Everyone has feelings, and those feelings last. No matter how much you try to hide or cover it, it'll always be there waiting to hunt you down. But what can we do about it? We always put an excuse to forget about it and move on. But truly, when some bad situation hits you hard to the ground, those memories will hit you even harder than you think it wouldn't.

I believe forgiveness is not by ignoring the facts, setting aside the truth that hurts and forgetting that it ever happened but instead, we are to confront and clear the slate in order to start afresh from where we'd stumbled upon. Just to let you know that, there is always two sides in a situation; the offender and the offended. But pride tend to be our best friend sometimes and visits us pretty often. 

For the offended - It's because pride took over our human flesh that we tend to be more critical and judgmental with the little mistakes that people had done to us without realizing that no human is perfect; not even ourselves. But it seems easier to look at people's flaws than our very own when we try to cover them up so badly so no one could see ours. 

For the offender - It's because pride took over our human flesh that we tend to try and maintain our "high" self esteem that made confrontation look a little uncool for everyone. But without realizing, have hurt so many people around us just by doing what we feel is cool for our own appearances. 

So therefore, both sides are responsible for forgiving and the other to ask for forgiveness. People who realize their wrongdoings and ask for forgiveness will understand being forgiven and people who have forgiven those who had done wrong unto you, will understand how others have forgiven you.

There is so many people that I need to truly forgive and to ask for forgiveness from; I hope it is not too late to do so especially to my family and a few others. I wish I could do so much more to regain everything that we once had together and I believe one day it will. With God, everything is possible. 

evon