Count Your Blessings

Blessed to be a blessing

Well, I guess it's the time of the year again. A wonderful ending for the year 2011; anticipating the new year of 2012. So much has happened, I couldn't even put them in words or even have the time to do so. But then again, reflecting the past now doesn't seem to be as bad as how it used to be when I was younger anymore. I guess I am stronger now knowing that there is this one person over millions of people who will always be behind me, catching me when I fall and accepting me for who I are when I do mistakes. When you do find that one person who would do all that without a single doubt, you know he's the right one for you. 

Let's start with my birthday, shall we? :)

First Day - Bff Gracie & Poh made a surprise for me on the 6th Nov at Ling's house with Krystal, Soph and the boyfriend; how awesome are my friends. Sadly, there was no photo taken! How can. Anyways, they made all my favourite food for dinner. And if you are wondering how I fell into their trick to get to Ling' house, well church purposes can get you everywhere especially with the help of the boyfriend hahaha.

Second Day - Boyfriend was wonderful enough to go shopping with me all day looking for my birthday present since it was a public holiday anyways. But boy, I dislike public holidays and heels. It's one of the worst combination ever! It gets you all sweaty and tired even in air-con places, imagine that. Anyways, we ended up getting myself a handbag. Me love, thanks boyfriend :) And had a little romantic dinner at Secret of Louisiana, next to the kelana lakeside. The food was good, ambiance was wonderful as well. Until this crazy drunken dude started singing karaoke with the mic haha. You should have seen our faces back then.

Third Day - Had a wonderful family dinner with the boyfriend and his family as well. Some place in Puchong where they sell awesome seafood. Recommended! But I forgot where that place was haha. Whoops

Thanks for the wonderful presents, everyone :)

Christmas was a funny one this year. Me and the boyfriend ended up wrapping presents till Christmas Day itself. A tiring yet lovely one indeed :) I had all the chocolates and candies I can ever imagine, yeah. And pretty shoes from boyfriend; what more can a girl ask for.

Well to end this wonderful year filled with blessings, I even got myself a new gadget - Blackberry Bold 9790. My first week using it and am loving every bit of it. Okay, I'm overjoyed. Remember to count your blessings, everyone; despite big or small :) Thanks for reading, till next time!

evon

Kitty Kitty Cat

I never thought it would end,

Cause you got up in my head like that,

And made me happy, oh love is crazy.

Just came back from camp yesterday. I've never felt so tired for not doing anything before. I actually think this is one of the most relaxing camps I've ever been to but yet the sleepiest and most tired. Hmmmm am I getting old or whaaaaaat. Gosh, o wells :\ It was a wonderful camp tho. Big applause to the chairwomen and camp committee! Will update on camp later on when the pictures come in.

Anyways, all my personal thoughts are like clogging up my social life. My brain's practically of no use right now ugh. How now brown cow? But I guess there are some things that are meant to be kept personal. Well, just found something that cheered myself up again. Boyfriend bought me this as a super random surprise, how sweet of him :) The only thing he's confidence in getting for me without asking for my permission haha

 

A ballerina Hello Kitty cup! I love it hehe. And look what the cover says :) Well, eventhough we may have alot of arguments and disagreements with each other at times; our love and commitment for each other will always be stronger than that. There are times I wish I could just give up, but you are all the reason I am still persevering. Anyways, I wish I can blog more but my tummy is singing wonderful songs. I shall head down to the kitchen now, byes

evon

A Thousand More

The minute you think of giving up,

Think of the reason why you held on so long.

Somehow, love has brought me back to this place; it takes much courage and confidence to begin with. Without it, love can never be fully expressed to it's fullest. This song reminded me once more of the step that I've decided to take with him 2 and a half years back. There was so many reasons for me to say no back then, but turns out to be every reason for me to say yes this moment. It may sound crazy; it may sound unrealistic, but you will never know until you find out. I must be kidding if I ever say that I'm not afraid of the future; of disappointments; of losing the one I love once more. But if I didn't choose to take this step closer back then, I would not have found the happiness that I have right now.

Heartbeats fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt

Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday

Waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid

I have loved you for a thousand years

I have loved you for a thousand more

Time stands still

Beauty I know she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away

What's standing in front of me

Every breath, every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday

Waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed

I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

evon

Brings Back Memories

The greatest thing you'll ever learn,

Is to love and be loved in return.

 This will be a very short post. As promised, I was suppose to blog about my day at Jayesslee's concert :) The concert was definitely graded 4/5 for me. From the host, opening performances to the performances from the twin sisters themselves. So here are the pictures, most of them ended up being cam whoring pictures cause our seats were close to the corners haha. But it was good! At least we were this close to them. Let's start off with my favourite picture of the day aite? :)

Bff and I bought Mcd to eat while waiting in line to enter

Photo-bombed! HAHA 

Boyfriend who went with me as well <3 

The rest who went. Sheena and her friend too

 The stage 

 MC of the day, Jin from Hitz fm. He was hilarious :)

The rest are just cam whoring pics while enjoying their music 

Ended with the first song I heard from them. Officially missing you by Tamia

Alright, that's it for now! Will update more on my birthday celebration and bedazzled phone hehe

evon

Enchanted

Love cannot be seen nor touched,

But must be felt in the heart.

I don't believe in spending 24/7 together with your partner. Loving a person doesn't mean constantly dwelling into each other's presence because it blinds you; it actually doesn't. Instead, it opens up one's eyes to see the reality of unconditional love and pure commitment. Love is not all about sugary sweetness as we all have imagined but because of love, we are suppose to accept the other half the way he or she is. Most of us never seems to understand this as we keep trying and trying to change our partner to be what we want them to be. It is not about finding the perfect men or women to fit your criteria. If you're still searching, let me tell you that you're most likely unable to find this right person to be with for the rest of your life.

It is by living the moment that you get to spend together that causes us to appreciate the time we manage to get to see one another. Because as days, months and years pass by, these days will set us a reminder of how much we truly love one another despite how busy we may get in life. I believe that even married couples face the same situations as any other; but marriage is not all about love anymore. Couples that have divorced did not bare in mind of the plans they have together in the future, providing for one another's needs whether it is emotional, physical or spiritual, and sacrificing their dreams for one another. However it may be, married couples too need to have their time alone to realize the importance of one another. 

Joshua has been there for me for the past years. Looking back at all the days that I cried and suffered with confusion with life, he was like a walking word of wisdom to me whether he realized it or not. He took care of me when no one did; brought me breakfast, lunch, dinner or supper, you name it; drove me around when I needed him to despite the distance; bought me lots of goodies to cheer me up or surprise me cause he knows I love it. I mean seriously, I have an amazing boyfriend and I'm proud to show it. I know I have high expectations to reach but he seems to be the extraordinary; in a very different perspective. I remember when we first gave each other a chance to work this out, I told myself that this would probably not last long because he was not exactly what I expected him to be back then. But somewhere in my heart gave it in anyways and it turns out, I was totally wrong. He is EXACTLY what I love my man to be without knowing. He has changed my perspective in love and the way we should search and respond to it. So after all these whiles, I was searching for the wrong people at the wrong places with the wrong reasons. It shook me real hard and has definitely awaken me to see the reality from my dreams.

The thing that works for us is that, despite our total differences in lifestyle and culture; we are very similar on the inside. We share similar beliefs and  goals that set us apart from others in life. Our views and opinions meets and it makes us stronger as we build each other up with encouragement and confidence. We believe that instead of seeing each other day and night, giving each other space would help in our relationship. We believe that being in a relationship need not be mushy and sweet words all the time; there are times of seriousness as well. We believe that it is impossible to love one another 24/7 but because of pure commitment and God's love. We believe that it is unnecessary to spend so much on each other in an on-going relationship; as it doesn't prove of your loyalty towards one another. 

I love that he doesn't pamper me all the time; knowing that I need a little push in life sometimes to succeed, he makes the effort to do so eventhough he loves me enough to do it for me. I love that he doesn't always make me happy; as it makes me realize that we are all just humans and how crazy my mood swings may be sometimes and it's unbearable. I love that he doesn't pay for everything but most of the time, he does; shows that I do put in some effort sometimes in the relationship as it is a two way street. I love that he cares for my family members as well; shows that they do mean something to him besides having a good relationship with me. 

It's weird how we slowly alter into each other's characters but amusing at the same time. We laugh and joke about one another when we realize the times that we imitated each other's habits unconsciously. The way we talk; the way we joke; the way we think; hopefully not the way we laugh haha. But this relationship has truly made me believe that he may be the right one for me, my Mr Right. Long gone are the days that I seek for someone who understands me inside and out and yet loves me back for who I am. It is like spending time with your best friend, but different; he's my lover as well. 

Well, he's probably in his Muay Thai class now and I'm happily blogging right here. Honestly, I'm not able to read where our future will stand but at least we look forward to it everyday now that we know what we want.  Always remind ourselves that being in a relationship/marriage is not about getting something in return, but it's about giving the best that you can for the one you love.

evon

Journey Like No Other

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry,

Show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.

 Hey ho! Finally, I am done with my finals. Eventhough it only lasted for 3 days, felt like ages to me. Hopefully all my studying pays off. No words can describe how stressful I was for the pass weeks; especially knowing that I'd be 20 next year and I needed to work extra hard since I'd slacked for a year while everyone was already studying. Well, you have no idea. And it has definitely been a long journey for me. An indescribable one; one that I'd never thought I would experience. I realized that I've always been pampered by everyone around me. And now I would have to learn to pick myself up whenever someone tries pushing me down. It is not easy because I'd never felt so depressed and alone before. Always knowing that someone will be there to protect me seems to mold me into this vulnerable person; but I have conquered it. Nothing's gonna stop me from doing greater things in my future. It's my life; my choice.

I'd promised myself not to only write when I'm sad, I suppose it's a very bad habit of mine. Reading back all my previous post, makes me sound unappreciative of my life and that's not how I want to live it. God has given us this life to do great things and be grateful of. Not knowing what's gonna happen in our future despite happiness or sorrows, isn't that what makes us anticipate more in life? When I'm 30 years old, I want to reread my blog knowing that I have achieve something in life. Doesn't matter if I became the wealthiest person on earth or not; as long I'd never look back in life with regrets. That would be success to me.

Well, one chapter of my life has ended; another awaits. What should I expect in life now? It's a good question; because I'm clueless myself. Seeing people around me with wonderful goals and dreams in life makes me envious sometimes as I wonder what I would be in the society when I grow up. Would I end up being a normal employee trying to stay alive from morning traffics? Or would I end up being someone important in society that could make a difference? My paths seems to be a blur to me since finals have ended; but I hope I could do so much more. So much more than I could ever imagine.

But yet there is so much I need to be grateful for. My boyfriend who has always been there for me; always had faith in me with the things that I do. It's hard to always be the responsible one; trying to keep up. But with him in my presence, I'm allowed to be myself once more.

Time does not wait for me and you. So it's time to bath my Colin boy! Alright, story you some other time :)





evon